The last time I had breakfast at the lounge, both of us had sent each other a photo of us during breakfast. In such a short time together we had created so much memories. I had been checking every morning on whatsapp just to know that he is still alive and kicking. Although its silly but knowing the "last seen" makes me relief but at the same time , I miss him so much that no numerical data could explain this yearning of him.
Yesterday evening was, another hectic and unplanned early departure, it seems that I do not feel as empty when my mind is full of work. Did watching the movie and able to release out made me better? Was it due to chanting and reading Sensei's guidance ? Was it the adrenaline rush with the unplanned early departure ? Was it knowing that someone else appreciate my effort of ensuring all in order?
I am not too sure. I do feel better and able to breathe and interact with my team. Knowing that my boss appreciates my effort in ensuring they are well taken care on board. I suddenly feel refreshed knowing that although he might not be back into my life that life does goes on. It is a matter of how I would like it to go on ? Without him and feeling sorry for myself or restarting all over again knowing that he once did love me unconditionally.
This round is the longest we hand not seen each other (10 days) and communicated through WhatsApp (3 days) . I do not consider the 10 days USA trip I was away to be the longest coz we did constantly WhatsApp each other. This is the longest period we had not been in touch since 11th of May. I wonder when will this silent treatment ends.
There was a game early this morning at the bar downstairs. On normal occasion I would have joined the crowd in cheering for the match but I just can't go. I am afraid that the urge to contact and WhatsApp him will be so intense while watching the match. His last message was obviously asking to be left alone for a while. Every time I encountered an incident be it good or bad I wanted so much to WhatsApp him but I just have to refrain from doing so.
Even while taking a shower looking at myself in the mirror reminds me of him. Every inch of my body yearn for his touch and kisses on me. The thought of him kissing me is already enough to arouse me and it constantly brings back memory of our love making. I just want to scrub myself so clean so he can kiss me all over again. It's such a silly thought. Yesterday night I really miss him a lot and I wonder if I am in his mind.
Yesterday evening was, another hectic and unplanned early departure, it seems that I do not feel as empty when my mind is full of work. Did watching the movie and able to release out made me better? Was it due to chanting and reading Sensei's guidance ? Was it the adrenaline rush with the unplanned early departure ? Was it knowing that someone else appreciate my effort of ensuring all in order?
I am not too sure. I do feel better and able to breathe and interact with my team. Knowing that my boss appreciates my effort in ensuring they are well taken care on board. I suddenly feel refreshed knowing that although he might not be back into my life that life does goes on. It is a matter of how I would like it to go on ? Without him and feeling sorry for myself or restarting all over again knowing that he once did love me unconditionally.
This round is the longest we hand not seen each other (10 days) and communicated through WhatsApp (3 days) . I do not consider the 10 days USA trip I was away to be the longest coz we did constantly WhatsApp each other. This is the longest period we had not been in touch since 11th of May. I wonder when will this silent treatment ends.
There was a game early this morning at the bar downstairs. On normal occasion I would have joined the crowd in cheering for the match but I just can't go. I am afraid that the urge to contact and WhatsApp him will be so intense while watching the match. His last message was obviously asking to be left alone for a while. Every time I encountered an incident be it good or bad I wanted so much to WhatsApp him but I just have to refrain from doing so.
Even while taking a shower looking at myself in the mirror reminds me of him. Every inch of my body yearn for his touch and kisses on me. The thought of him kissing me is already enough to arouse me and it constantly brings back memory of our love making. I just want to scrub myself so clean so he can kiss me all over again. It's such a silly thought. Yesterday night I really miss him a lot and I wonder if I am in his mind.
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