I am glad to know that he had started his Iressa treatment. He had also shared that he had been thinking a lot and his mind is clear, he wants me to move on to find the opportunities in happiness and we will always be friend. I understand his intention as he does not want me to wait for him and eventually be his burden. I has also been thinking for the past few days about being with him. I am thinking if I an living in the sweet 6 weeks of honeymoon, love the guy on that 6 weeks and believe in that and refuse to wake up ? Or I truly love him now ? I can say that u can't stop thinking of him and miss him badly. I am asking myself to follow my sensible mind and let him go. To fulfil his wish to do what he wants me to go but my heart tells me otherwise, I love him even if I choose to listen to him I truly love him . I had made up my mind today that I will love him in my way. To stay strong and continue living my life but never give him up. I will start preparing simple meal and deliver to him. Hopefully he will gain strength to fight against the tumor. I will do it as long as he is still in Singapore . At this moment my heart cannot love others or my body cannot belong to others coz it's a promise I made . I believe he would had wanted to do the same thing but he just wants the best for me. I hope he will begun to realise the best for me now is to allow me to be with him. I will also need to start sharing to him to start chanting as well. Mystic Law really works in the most mysterious way and it will work for him too in healing him.
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