The feeling of emptiness and heavy chest is not that strong this morning. I believe it's one determination that changes the whole situation. One's mind that changes the situation. Could it be that I am stronger in controlling my mind now ?
Although I had decided to move on and to keep this love and cherish it, his reply came in unexpectedly. "That he is in great trouble and nothing matters anymore at this point of time and I need to move on to find the happiness I deserved. "
His reply had convinced me that what we once went through was real amd sincere. I had chosen to take the path to silently support him every day by being strong. I pray that he will face his situation courageously. Since I had chosen this path, my mission for kosenrufu became clearer although at times I am not sure if this is the right path to take on. Since Nichiren Daishonin Buddhism believes that all human is a Buddha, I am determined to be his pillar of support to overcome his challenges. I will prove to him our love could sustain all obstacles as long as one has "Faith".
I am chanting daily to find the strength in me to be strong and independent, to be there when should he fall. I hope he won't fall but continue to stay strong. Wrote him a poem this morning too,
Sun rises,
Time to face the day,
In whichever way,
Rest assured ,
That I will be there,
When you call upon me.
I will send him daily encouragement and love to enable him to be strong. I also striving daily with 2 hours or more Daimoku and daily dialogue with whoever I could meet to continue my mission in Kosenrufu. I hope that my mission will enable me and him to overcome our inner state to be strong. I still love him very much till today.
Although I had decided to move on and to keep this love and cherish it, his reply came in unexpectedly. "That he is in great trouble and nothing matters anymore at this point of time and I need to move on to find the happiness I deserved. "
His reply had convinced me that what we once went through was real amd sincere. I had chosen to take the path to silently support him every day by being strong. I pray that he will face his situation courageously. Since I had chosen this path, my mission for kosenrufu became clearer although at times I am not sure if this is the right path to take on. Since Nichiren Daishonin Buddhism believes that all human is a Buddha, I am determined to be his pillar of support to overcome his challenges. I will prove to him our love could sustain all obstacles as long as one has "Faith".
I am chanting daily to find the strength in me to be strong and independent, to be there when should he fall. I hope he won't fall but continue to stay strong. Wrote him a poem this morning too,
Sun rises,
Time to face the day,
In whichever way,
Rest assured ,
That I will be there,
When you call upon me.
I will send him daily encouragement and love to enable him to be strong. I also striving daily with 2 hours or more Daimoku and daily dialogue with whoever I could meet to continue my mission in Kosenrufu. I hope that my mission will enable me and him to overcome our inner state to be strong. I still love him very much till today.
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