After a few days of non-stop conversation through WhatsApp with my bi, he finally shared that he will not ,cannot and , has no right to give me any commitment. His answer has provided me a understanding but at the same time I was quite sadden knowing that he still does not want me to be fully involved in his life at this moment . It had taken him 2 months and me lots of patience and "soup" before he decides to finally see me. I don't want to lose him again hence I don't want to force him in giving me any answer or commitment at this moment. I will wait as what I had shared to him earlier, waiting for him patiently and providing as much care and time whenever he allows me to do so. I nearly teared when I received his sharing/message earlier but I am glad he shared.
I am still waiting for our first night together but for now he is not ready to give me that as he does not want me to be there if he gets emotional with his condition/pain. I know he will be one day . I just have to wait patiently for him to be ready . I just want to be able to wake up beside him watching him sleep soundly and peacefully beside me. Today will be one of those days where by I will be disappointed but this feeling will eventually make me stronger too. It is just one of this days for me.
"Bi please understand that I am doing all this coz I really love you and nothing else. I just want to be with you as long as you are still breathing. Please rest assure I will continue to live a fulfilling life as I belive that's what you want me to do. I love you from the day we started and I will continue to love you as long as you are alive and even after you are gone. Rest assured I will be strong and continue living my life to the fullest knowing that you love me till the day you are gone. Love you always bi ❤
I am still waiting for our first night together but for now he is not ready to give me that as he does not want me to be there if he gets emotional with his condition/pain. I know he will be one day . I just have to wait patiently for him to be ready . I just want to be able to wake up beside him watching him sleep soundly and peacefully beside me. Today will be one of those days where by I will be disappointed but this feeling will eventually make me stronger too. It is just one of this days for me.
"Bi please understand that I am doing all this coz I really love you and nothing else. I just want to be with you as long as you are still breathing. Please rest assure I will continue to live a fulfilling life as I belive that's what you want me to do. I love you from the day we started and I will continue to love you as long as you are alive and even after you are gone. Rest assured I will be strong and continue living my life to the fullest knowing that you love me till the day you are gone. Love you always bi ❤
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