An interesting encounter happened this morning , I board a taxi to Mt. E to accompany Lai Wah to see her doctor. The taxi driver happens to tall bout a cancer hospice whereby he volunteer, to cheer up the cancer patient. I shared to him bout my "bi" and he advised to ensure that my "bi" is happy coz happy hormone helps in fighting cancer. He also knows bout SSA and a few of the leaders in my district. What a coincidence ! It seems that I had shoten zenjin coming into my life daily to assist me to be strong for my "bi".
The experience to go in and meet Peter (Lai Wah's oncologist ) was another eye opening experience as well. It seems more like a chat rather than consultation. He was rather a charming person too😊. I shared with Lai Wah about the Budwig treatment and consulted her if it's a good idea to propose to my "bi". She heard about it but her doctor do not recommend it to her. Anyway she will read bout it and let me know what she thinks . I am still hopeful that it will work for my "bi" to cure him from cancer but at the same time I am worried coz in order to go for the treatment , one have to stop all medication/treatment. I am worried if this will make it worst for my "bi". The more I read I feels that it us a detox and reset the body system to use one's own immune system to fight that tumor in the body, to allow more oxygen as tumor can't survive in an oxygenated environment. I need a direction on this and the best way to approach is through Daimoku . I am on the way to Senja to chant b4 my class .
I was worried when I did not see him online until just now. I hope he is stronger. He did not read my message yet. Not sure if I am annoying him already. I send him a photo of me with morning wishes. I just need to have faith that all will work out well. At times I think I am in denial wishful thinking that we will get back together , although I did say it does not matter if we are together as long as he lives. Lai Wah reminded me again this morning to not expect anything coz it will be painful and difficult for him too. Am I being self centred and thinking of what I want again ?
Jeremy had been very active in checking on my situation lately. Last week he type "I love you". I assumed he accidently typed wrongly. Then he asked to come and accompany me on the weekend. I rejected. Today he implied that he wanted me to be his women. I wanted to have the comfort from someone but it's not him. I feel nothing for him at this moment. I just missed Freddy so much that all I can do is chant daily and go for classes to better myself, so when he sees me I can show it to him.
Just had a wonderful evening with Michelle and she fully support me wanting to fight for my happiness with Freddy.
The experience to go in and meet Peter (Lai Wah's oncologist ) was another eye opening experience as well. It seems more like a chat rather than consultation. He was rather a charming person too😊. I shared with Lai Wah about the Budwig treatment and consulted her if it's a good idea to propose to my "bi". She heard about it but her doctor do not recommend it to her. Anyway she will read bout it and let me know what she thinks . I am still hopeful that it will work for my "bi" to cure him from cancer but at the same time I am worried coz in order to go for the treatment , one have to stop all medication/treatment. I am worried if this will make it worst for my "bi". The more I read I feels that it us a detox and reset the body system to use one's own immune system to fight that tumor in the body, to allow more oxygen as tumor can't survive in an oxygenated environment. I need a direction on this and the best way to approach is through Daimoku . I am on the way to Senja to chant b4 my class .
I was worried when I did not see him online until just now. I hope he is stronger. He did not read my message yet. Not sure if I am annoying him already. I send him a photo of me with morning wishes. I just need to have faith that all will work out well. At times I think I am in denial wishful thinking that we will get back together , although I did say it does not matter if we are together as long as he lives. Lai Wah reminded me again this morning to not expect anything coz it will be painful and difficult for him too. Am I being self centred and thinking of what I want again ?
Jeremy had been very active in checking on my situation lately. Last week he type "I love you". I assumed he accidently typed wrongly. Then he asked to come and accompany me on the weekend. I rejected. Today he implied that he wanted me to be his women. I wanted to have the comfort from someone but it's not him. I feel nothing for him at this moment. I just missed Freddy so much that all I can do is chant daily and go for classes to better myself, so when he sees me I can show it to him.
Just had a wonderful evening with Michelle and she fully support me wanting to fight for my happiness with Freddy.
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