It has been a week since I had sort of upset my bi. I was in Africa for a week. Travelling around on duty and keeping busy had made me think of my bi not responding to me lesser. I still have him in my thoughts daily. Everyday after a hard and tough day, I thought of sharing to him but it will made me look like whining so u decided not to do so. It also reminded me of my tough days when I was doing my US trip and my bi had promised that he will 'sayang' me when I am back in Singapore. I just had to be tougher this time.
I had written to him and send him a few photos of my travel in Africa. He had not responded to any of my message but I know he had read it. I had even shared that I was elated when I found out from one of my guest that my boss speaks highly of me when I was not around and to continue to surprise my boss daily...lolz...it had really made my day and I had shared this happy news with my bi.
Jeremy was very persistent in sending WhatsApp to me throughout my Africa trip asking if he should come over and accompany me after my trip. I had allowed him to do so trying to figure if I can get over my bi by seeing some other people. I could not. He tried to hug me. I don't feel a single thing. He tried to kiss me and I don't even feel like responding to his kiss. All the time when we talk, I could just think of my bi beside me. I even shared that I still love my bi although my bi choose not to see me when Jeremy asked about my bi. I really want my bi only and no one else. We went for dinner and he even offered to accompany me to Paris if I agree to do so. I did not respond to him as I wanted to fulfil a mission on my own when I am I Paris in September.
I had delivered 'vampire slayer ' soup to my bi on Monday morning only to get a negative respond from him which really hurts me a lot. I did not know what to respond to him initially. This time I was not defeated. I choose to stand strong and support him as long as he is alive. I am quite glad that my bi had shared with me his condition from his last check up on last week, and his thoughts on a few things. For now I will be staying away form my bi for at least 1 week, kinda quarantine myself after Africa trip from my bi. I hope that he will want to meet me next week when I am back. I miss him a lot. Miss him every single days. I am planning to send him soup again later ...hopefully he will not reject it...
I had written to him and send him a few photos of my travel in Africa. He had not responded to any of my message but I know he had read it. I had even shared that I was elated when I found out from one of my guest that my boss speaks highly of me when I was not around and to continue to surprise my boss daily...lolz...it had really made my day and I had shared this happy news with my bi.
Jeremy was very persistent in sending WhatsApp to me throughout my Africa trip asking if he should come over and accompany me after my trip. I had allowed him to do so trying to figure if I can get over my bi by seeing some other people. I could not. He tried to hug me. I don't feel a single thing. He tried to kiss me and I don't even feel like responding to his kiss. All the time when we talk, I could just think of my bi beside me. I even shared that I still love my bi although my bi choose not to see me when Jeremy asked about my bi. I really want my bi only and no one else. We went for dinner and he even offered to accompany me to Paris if I agree to do so. I did not respond to him as I wanted to fulfil a mission on my own when I am I Paris in September.
I had delivered 'vampire slayer ' soup to my bi on Monday morning only to get a negative respond from him which really hurts me a lot. I did not know what to respond to him initially. This time I was not defeated. I choose to stand strong and support him as long as he is alive. I am quite glad that my bi had shared with me his condition from his last check up on last week, and his thoughts on a few things. For now I will be staying away form my bi for at least 1 week, kinda quarantine myself after Africa trip from my bi. I hope that he will want to meet me next week when I am back. I miss him a lot. Miss him every single days. I am planning to send him soup again later ...hopefully he will not reject it...
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