Silliest thing I am doing for ❤or myself ???

I am doing something very silly today. Something that I had wanted to do from the beginning when all this happened but did not. Here I am nearby to his condo waiting for him to be back or he is already home and probably with his "family " . Anyway its his birthday on 11th August. I just wanted to pass him the chanting beads I bought for him and wish him "happy birthday " . I had asked earlier in the evening if I can come over after my soka meeting.  He had replied "It's OK don't have to. I will be with some family later " I am not sure if I am reading too much into "some family" that I felt it will be with Jenny's family.  So I asked but he never reply. If its true with them then they are all probably up in the condo celebrating his birthday. He never even read my last message if they are celebrating his birthday. Anyway I am kinda pissed off that he again chooses not to reply me . So wrote him a kinda upset message but this time no guilt on my side . Just wanted to share to him to be fair to me too. I decided to come over here and pass him his beads and go back home. I send him a message when I arrived but he has not seen his whatsapp since 930pm. I had been waiting here since 10 plus. I know it's silly but I just want to do it. I refuse to give up. I think I am stubborn and just want to win and do it my way. I am not sure what is the outcome tonight or this morning . It's already passed midnight and he had not seen the message . Will I be waiting here at the bus stop till morning ? I think if I do it will most probably be the silliest thing I had done for ❤in my whole life. There is no guarantee of the outcome too. He might be furious and pissed off that I am doing such crazy stuff . He probably thinks I am cuckoo and crazy too. Let it be let it be....