I am now seated on a red long comfy sofa in the living room of my dearest friend Lai Wah. She had cancer relapsed few months back and last week doctor advised to go for chemotherapy on Wednesday. I am here to accompany her and stay over tonight to monitor her situation. I cooked her a healthy meal today
Since my bi had insisted that I should not send any food to him... I need to cook away all the organic stuff I bought for him in the fridge 😟 so I am cooking for Lai Wah.
The last few days had been a lil awkward for me to communicate with him. I felt so distance from him. I am not sure why I felt this way. Although he had shared to not think bout the issue that happened on Tuesday but I felt I kinda lost him in my life again. I fear that he had finally decided to cut me out totally. Although he did reply on both mornings after that incident. Lai wah asked me earlier to think if I care for him or I ❤him. I shared I ❤him coz it ache me that he can't be there to share my joy or sorrow daily, could not accompany me to outings, spend time with me...I miss him a lot too...I yearn for his touch and his kisses...of course I did not tell her all that above. Too much details to be shared bout my personal life. Yes, I ❤him. If I care for him only I would not feel this way if he did not reply or if we did not meet. I am bit worried now coz he had not responded to any of my messages since this morning. Now he had turned of his data or hp. I hope he is just resting, he had shared that this week is bad for him. He had feel worst and it might be unbearable too since he shared he feels he is getting weaker and weaker. I will just have to wait patiently and probably start to chant that all will go smoothly on his side if he is in hospital today. Please stay strong and fight bi❤
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